Truth of a poem by buttons-and-bicycles, literature
Literature
Truth of a poem
Poetry is like a puzzle
To be solved, tiny words
Pieces
Fitting together
To create whatever you wish
Edges
Meeting edges
Some are wrong but I
Can never quite figure out
Why
Until the final picture
Makes itself known
Months pass yet still
Disjointed
I just can’t figure you out
The girl was out of control, sprinting too fast.
She ran herself right down into the ground
And did not stop until she was so far under
The sun was lost to layers of soil and earth, too
Heavy for her exhausted arms to lift. Trapped;
She curled herself up and rested, dormant
A seed. Alone, she waited. Time passed, seasons
Changed as gradually parts of her began to awaken and
unravel. Painful at first, reaching out, pushing up, searching-
When she finally broke the surface she shyly stood
Unsure of herself, slowly shaking off the dirt until
She found the warmth again and bloomed.
Please do not cut yourself open
and lay bare your insides
For how can I honestly carry your
heart and soul upon my shoulders
When I am barely strong enough to
stand upright
Crippled under the weight of myself?
Blood tests
Blood tests
Blood tests
Three doctors
Two specialists
Medication
Eight tablets
Morning and night
Every day for
Months on end
Blood tests
Radioactive scans
Blood tests
An acupuncturist
Needles
More blood tests
And once those stats are
Finally back to normal
When I am ‘well’
Dosage cut down
Medication for another
Eighteen months
Blood tests
Hopefully dropping
Back to every
Three months
Then six months
And twelve months
For the rest of my life
It has been eleven months
Since I stopped writing
And that is long enough.
Eyes magnified behind forest-rimmed circles of glass. Dark shadows beneath her eyes; hair fluffy and feathered from being tousled in the wind. She does not sleep. Her hunt for knowledge is nocturnal. Later, she stands at the window and looks towards the sky, listening to the calling of the owls.
And it’s like I’m hoping that
this time baby, I’ll be bulletproof
but I know that I won’t be because
I’m only human and you still
have the power to hurt me.
And this time I’m drowning but there’s no one here to save me,
and this time I can’t find the surface alone. And he’s dumping me and
the water is soaking and the sand is stinging and I’m just waiting
for the seagulls to come and peck out my heart.
Driving 110km down the highway;
Eight hours on the road and I'm drinking
ridiculous amounts of iced tea
while you're resting one hand
on the steering wheel, arm lazing
on the open window ledge.
Air conditioning full blast, music
deafeningly competes with the silence
That comes when the singing stops.
Thirty five degrees and twelve years of
friendship. And if we're honest it's
much too hot to talk anyway.
Love and Chocolate by buttons-and-bicycles, literature
Literature
Love and Chocolate
You always said I was an
emotional eater.
Right now i'm hungry,
tired and sad.
Today, I ate two chocolate
bars while driving home;
one was meant for after dinner,
the other during my
double shift at work tomorrow.
Woops.
Maybe it's because even though I ran
three kilometres today, the happy
endorphins which are meant to kick
in after exercise still
weren't enough to stop me
thinking of you.